I still go through our pictures once in a blue moon and wonder what went wrong? But this time I have answers.

2:47 am

I really shouldn't be up at this hour because I've got a class to attend at 8 in the morning but duh. 

I've recently experienced an emotional breakdown. It was painful and the initial stages sucked. I remember crying, trembling, not being able to utter a word. All of this is personal information and I really shouldn't be posting it on this platform but it's the only way to reach out to everyone who is being or could be affected by the same things bothering me. 

I'll tell you how most of us deal with breakdowns. We simply let our emotions take over our subconscious and trust me that's the worst thing one can do. Getting over someone and not letting emotions take over can be tough but we gotta understand that the universe has it's own plans for us so if something, be it good or bad, happens, it always happens for a reason. You have to break all the barriers and reach out for that reason. Because if you won't get yourself out of the deadly phase of 'cold bodies, swollen eyes and dried up throats' any soon, you're going to be stuck in that loop for a long time and you are going to regret it later because it's never gonna come back. 

And I do understand that all of this can change you as an individual. It had an impact on me too. You may lose a few sides of your identity but you will rediscover them with the passage of time. It's solely your decision how you're going to shape this impact. You have to decide whether you'll cry and regret or get over it and focus on what the future beholds.

I no longer crave for his presence because I've made peace with the idea that the universe has got other plans for me and maybe their continuity required us to be apart. But this doesn't mean that the time spent with him wasn't worth it. I cherish each and every moment spent with him. I still go through our pictures once in a blue moon and wonder what went wrong? But this time I have answers.