PRIVATE PARTS.

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The first love of my life never saw me naked. We dated a long time ago, when we were small kids, shaping ourselves and still wondering what love looked like? We didn't have complications back then and it was all so cute like puppy love.

I never offered him "my private parts" as termed by my parents but all I offered him was my true soul, every inch of it. I told him my deepest secrets and he too did the same. I thought he was someone to trust upon so I let him drown deep inside the ocean of my emotions and let him discover myself. From telling every little detail of how my day went, to every obstacle that I had to face in my life, he knew everything. Were these not my private parts? He never saw my naked body but all he saw was my naked soul and heart and all my raw emotions. And all those parts still belong to him and always will but unfortunately now he's just a stranger with all my deepest secrets and he will carry those with him, he'll carry a part of me wherever he goes.

And now I'm wide awake in the middle of the night and writing this, wondering what went wrong? He must be lying in some other woman's arms right now, making love to her. Maybe he is thinking about me laying under sheets on his bed or maybe. Maybe he has found love once again in his life. Maybe he's drinking whiskey from a pitcher at 5am in an unknown bar or maybe, maybe he's happy.
I wish my parents made this clear what really private parts were, not only the ones attached to my body but the ones attached to my soul and if this was clear in my mind long before I might not be in such a dilemma in which I am right now.




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