LOVE IS NOT A LOOSING GAME.

What's your biggest fear? They asked. The first thing that came in my mind was losing someone I love. We all have our special people, those who are always there for us.
Always? Not really.

Loosing someone you love is not the last goodbye or the final I love you they say when they stand at your door for the last time. It's not that easy, right? You don't loose someone all at once, instead you loose them everyday. You loose them when you wake up to an empty bed, when you sip coffee from the mug that was once their favourite. You miss the warmth of their arms and how their cold feet used to feel. When partying all Friday night changes to crying on your bed alone, trust me it feels like hell. And when you're finally about to settle all your pieces back somehow, that one song plays which they made you hear for the first time, and in seconds you're broken once again. All I'm trying to say is losing someone and then recovering from that void isn't easy, you don't loose someone all at once.

You loose them everyday, as each new day begins, as you are living a particular moment, as you are just lying down doing nothing, you loose them all over again. You loose em slowly, when you wear that sweater in which you both you used to snuggle in bed, that sweater still have their fragrance. Long journeys without them and travelling alone, you lost a shoulder on which you used to hung your head up. You lost your pizza date partner and you lost the one whom you truly loved.

But if we go in the depth of our hearts and souls we'll realise that the phase of life which belonged to them once is still theirs. The memories, the days, the snuggles, the kisses, the things they told and taught you still exist. We didn't loose that phase, actually we didn't loose anything at all because a love so real, it can't be lost. It still exists. That love made us grew. A love that is so real, that made you believe in fairytales and that helped you to be more vivid and independent, a love that taught you how to live can never be lost. Love is not a loosing game.